by Invincible Victoria
Sometimes with all the men a girl can go through, love and romantic relationships can get confusing. What does this girl really want anyway? Right now, it's a bank account that rocks!
Once upon a time this girl wanted a family. Then this same girl decided she wanted to build an empire instead. Then she met a man she would have given the sun moon and lasso all the stars for and decided she had to prove to herself all the million reasons why she was worth it and that when the fantasy was done she could be a good mom and wife again. But, when he went away she was just fucking done with it and decided building an empire would be more suitable. F* love onto Benjamins. So, she set off on that plan ... again.
Determined, she made it a point to push her way through and prove to herself she could do life alone and live in moments. She doesn't need anyone...or anything. No more talks of forever. Or romance. No more tolerating men and all their talks of wanting a family. She has a family - her and her two kiddos. They are the 3-Amigos.
Then she meets someone, and it starts again.
Then that one goes away. Another one comes. Both literally and figuratively.
This is really like 6 years and counting with a lot of sheets and men in between. The cycle continues, but only when building dreams do these guys find her. What gives?!
It's a bit ironic the men a gal ends up forming real relationships with verses the men who are just this girl's play things until she's done. It may sound awful. However, she makes no apologies. How many play things has she been for a man. All is fair in love and war ...and great sex....and sometimes not so great sex...
The thing is, just when life gets focused on building dreams something or someone comes along that changes the course and direction of where you're headed. SUCK!!!!!!!!! WTF! In this moment this chick (i.e. me) couldn't be more confused. Life on repeat.
This song seems to be fitting for her life in this moment.
Nora Jones - Man of the Hour
The lyrics go:
It's him or me
That's what he said
But I can't choose
Between a vegan and a pot head
So I chose you, because you're sweet
And you give me lots of lovin' and you eat meat
And that's how you became
My only man of the hour ...
How fun.. and fitting for her life. Except she's not choosing between men right now. She's choosing between life paths and goals at the moment. And in the midst of it all, once again she happens upon someone new who is taking her on a completely different adventure.
There is always another story waiting in the wings. Like Alice in Wonderland, sometimes you just don't know which path to take and other times you happen upon delectable treats that both say, "Eat Me" each with a completely different effects on one's life.
